Comments on: first love – part 4: http://www.imboycrazy.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4/ A pep talk in the form of a slap in the face in the form of a blog. Thu, 09 Feb 2012 03:13:26 +0000 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.2.1 By: Ornella http://www.imboycrazy.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4/comment-page-1/#comment-1326 Ornella Fri, 12 Jun 2009 07:14:46 +0000 http://s64881.gridserver.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4.html#comment-1326 i knew my first love since i was five. we were best friends forever. but i always for some reason had deeper feelings for him could not understand. i soon moved from cali to texas in 8th grade and lived my life here we talked every once in a while until senior yr of highschool we began talking EVERY DAY. in college [[still diff states]] we began talking of our deeper feelings..he decided to make it official and would want to work on it forever because i was the person he knew he should be with. so we made schedules of when to visit eachother and all and he would obsess over calling me every night and i loved it..he came to visit during his spring break and that was amazsing. the happiest ive ever felt. he claimed so as well. the day he had to leave i had reahersal i could not miss and was private so i couldnt take him to the airport..we both cried and when i left he bawled to my mom..when he got back...no calls...no texts for 3 days..until on fb i saw he was in relationship with someone else..we'll call her monica. so i asked him of monica..he said her ex was creeping her out so it was just to help..i believed it..his best friend told me they were dating.SHE told me they were dating..so we broke up..but he talked me through and said they only had sex and he was completley wasted she wasnt and yeah so i said fine..and he said u know ill delete my fb too much drama..a week later..[[sign from god]] notifications said monica had commentied his picture..i thought weird must be a glitch..i click it..there is his fb..i was blocked and he had pictures with her....IN A RELATIONSHIP...most devastating moment of my life..and he wouldnt even talk to me about it..wouldnt say ANYTHING..never though he would be like this...first time he cheats in a relationship and it HAD to be with me? and now i sit here..thinking...how do i get his friendship back..HE doesnt want to talk to ME...i feel pathetic but at the same time..im glad I was the one who ended it..but it sucks..i want his friendship more than anything..and i love him to death. i knew my first love since i was five. we were best friends forever. but i always for some reason had deeper feelings for him could not understand. i soon moved from cali to texas in 8th grade and lived my life here we talked every once in a while until senior yr of highschool we began talking EVERY DAY. in college [[still diff states]] we began talking of our deeper feelings..he decided to make it official and would want to work on it forever because i was the person he knew he should be with. so we made schedules of when to visit eachother and all and he would obsess over calling me every night and i loved it..he came to visit during his spring break and that was amazsing. the happiest ive ever felt. he claimed so as well. the day he had to leave i had reahersal i could not miss and was private so i couldnt take him to the airport..we both cried and when i left he bawled to my mom..when he got back…no calls…no texts for 3 days..until on fb i saw he was in relationship with someone else..we’ll call her monica. so i asked him of monica..he said her ex was creeping her out so it was just to help..i believed it..his best friend told me they were dating.SHE told me they were dating..so we broke up..but he talked me through and said they only had sex and he was completley wasted she wasnt and yeah so i said fine..and he said u know ill delete my fb too much drama..a week later..[[sign from god]] notifications said monica had commentied his picture..i thought weird must be a glitch..i click it..there is his fb..i was blocked and he had pictures with her….IN A RELATIONSHIP…most devastating moment of my life..and he wouldnt even talk to me about it..wouldnt say ANYTHING..never though he would be like this…first time he cheats in a relationship and it HAD to be with me? and now i sit here..thinking…how do i get his friendship back..HE doesnt want to talk to ME…i feel pathetic but at the same time..im glad I was the one who ended it..but it sucks..i want his friendship more than anything..and i love him to death.

]]> By: Anonymous http://www.imboycrazy.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4/comment-page-1/#comment-519 Anonymous Tue, 02 Jun 2009 20:49:49 +0000 http://s64881.gridserver.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4.html#comment-519 The first guy I ever fell in love with (and even though I tell myself otherwise, sometimes I think he's the only guy I've ever truly been in love with) was with me for a year. I was 15 as well when we first started dating, and was COMPLETELY devestated when it ended. He told me he thought we were too young to be so serious, and broke up with me. Two years later, he showed up at my house, and said that breaking up with me was the biggest mistake he ever made, and still loved me. He cried and begged, but I told him I didn't want to get back together because I was afraid of being hurt so badly again. A year or so has passed since then, and luckily, we're good friends. I may not be madly in love with him anymore, but he'll always have a place in my heart. Sometimes I think I made mistake not taking him back that night... The first guy I ever fell in love with (and even though I tell myself otherwise, sometimes I think he's the only guy I've ever truly been in love with) was with me for a year. I was 15 as well when we first started dating, and was COMPLETELY devestated when it ended. He told me he thought we were too young to be so serious, and broke up with me. Two years later, he showed up at my house, and said that breaking up with me was the biggest mistake he ever made, and still loved me. He cried and begged, but I told him I didn't want to get back together because I was afraid of being hurt so badly again. A year or so has passed since then, and luckily, we're good friends. I may not be madly in love with him anymore, but he'll always have a place in my heart. Sometimes I think I made mistake not taking him back that night…

]]> By: Ashita Alix http://www.imboycrazy.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4/comment-page-1/#comment-520 Ashita Alix Tue, 02 Jun 2009 19:10:29 +0000 http://s64881.gridserver.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4.html#comment-520 If only I had the power, the emotional stability and creativity to write something. Your stories are so engaging and from what I read ... is it real?<br /><br />if so JEEEZZUS you been through a lot!<br />haha give me more If only I had the power, the emotional stability and creativity to write something. Your stories are so engaging and from what I read … is it real?

if so JEEEZZUS you been through a lot!
haha give me more

]]> By: Missy http://www.imboycrazy.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4/comment-page-1/#comment-521 Missy Tue, 02 Jun 2009 18:08:11 +0000 http://s64881.gridserver.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4.html#comment-521 love it love it

]]> By: Anonymous http://www.imboycrazy.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4/comment-page-1/#comment-522 Anonymous Tue, 02 Jun 2009 15:13:26 +0000 http://s64881.gridserver.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4.html#comment-522 Please do a proper story on how you lost your virginity! Please do a proper story on how you lost your virginity!

]]> By: Chandra http://www.imboycrazy.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4/comment-page-1/#comment-523 Chandra Tue, 02 Jun 2009 14:58:32 +0000 http://s64881.gridserver.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4.html#comment-523 Awh :), that's such a cute story! Even though it was a sad ending.. but also a happy ending because you learned from it.. wierd haha. But anyway it was way cute. Awh :) , that’s such a cute story! Even though it was a sad ending.. but also a happy ending because you learned from it.. wierd haha. But anyway it was way cute.

]]> By: Bree http://www.imboycrazy.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4/comment-page-1/#comment-524 Bree Tue, 02 Jun 2009 14:34:40 +0000 http://s64881.gridserver.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4.html#comment-524 Nice story. I like your blog and I've got it bookmarked now.<br />I am boy crazy too, so keep writing! Nice story. I like your blog and I’ve got it bookmarked now.
I am boy crazy too, so keep writing!

]]> By: gold fawn http://www.imboycrazy.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4/comment-page-1/#comment-525 gold fawn Tue, 02 Jun 2009 11:34:58 +0000 http://s64881.gridserver.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4.html#comment-525 can't help but wonder where he is now... can’t help but wonder where he is now…

]]> By: alex http://www.imboycrazy.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4/comment-page-1/#comment-526 alex Tue, 02 Jun 2009 09:40:53 +0000 http://s64881.gridserver.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4.html#comment-526 oh my gosh. that was pure poetry, you need to write a god damn book already. oh my gosh. that was pure poetry, you need to write a god damn book already.

]]> By: Roseyglasses http://www.imboycrazy.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4/comment-page-1/#comment-527 Roseyglasses Tue, 02 Jun 2009 09:39:36 +0000 http://s64881.gridserver.com/2009/06/first-love-part-4.html#comment-527 Super finale!!!! I totally understand the feeling of it being an equivalent to death. Its crazy how it really feels like the world is crashing in on you for a while but then you realize there is so much more out there... Super finale!!!! I totally understand the feeling of it being an equivalent to death. Its crazy how it really feels like the world is crashing in on you for a while but then you realize there is so much more out there…

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