your blog is fun to read :p, i hate it when you wake up in blood pisses me off or makes me sad because then im like far out period time. why am i even saying this in a public blog god!
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courtnie

Its like i pick out girls that do this to me on a regular. I dont hate you for it, but how do you make it stop? because i would love to know

Creating situations where someone has to prove themselves is just symptomatic of being addicted to the passion of emotional pain. Some people feel that an emotion can’t be real and deep if it’s not accompanied by emotional pain. This is the emotional equivalent of a cutter – and just as effective at solving the problem.

If you can be this honest in a blog, you should be able to be honest in a relationship (and if shoulds were goods we’d all be wealthy). I’m not sure if restraint is the answer (unless you have ones that come with gags). More likely, you need to actually deal with the problems rather than sublimate them.

You’ve obviously already come to the conclusion that you have some real issues with the emotions of relationships (and who doesn’t – except me, I’m fine – move along, nothing to see here). Until you can correct the astigmatism of that lens, it’s going to be hard to have any objective view on the actual relationship itself.

Possibly you can go down the list of things you do that you find unhealthy – and try to figure out the reasons you do them or say them. Figure out what emotional chasm is being filled by your various scenarios, proofs, fights, validation, reassurance, etc. People don’t say things they don’t mean because of hormones – but sometimes they get twisted and thresholds get lowered and inward anger gets directed outward. The spotter becomes the target.

Either that, or possibly just eat more fruit. That could also be it. Probably papaya. Try both and lemme know which one works.