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holy fuck! when exactly did my phone become my lifeline? My beacon of hope?! I stare at it. i cradle it in my hands. It’s a part of me. this has been slowly creeping up on me for like practically an eon! but I’m still shocked at how full on my dependency has become! if someone told me what I’m telling you, I’d say ‘yo, bro, for serious, you have way too much time on your hands. you’re obsessing. get a life. chill-ax. take it down a notch or twelve!’ But, I don’t have too much time on my hands. I have plenty to do. that’s the problem! my phone is my perfect excuse/distraction that keeps me from getting that stuff done! how confusing! it helps me AND it’s debilitating all at once! what the fuck?! Be careful! don’t let this happen to you.
I hear phantom beeps/text alerts/e-mail notifications! I thought I was better than this! i feel it vibrate in my back pocket even when i, for some stupid reason- that i should probably be murdered for, left it at home or in the car! what was i thinking? Please god- don’t let me get in a car accident because I can’t unglue my eyes from my phone, which is cradled in the drink holder, cuz I’m checking to see if the red light is flashing! this is sick! and i don’t even have a camera phone… yet!
it’s the first thing i look at in the morning and the last thing i look at before bed. I’ve even found myself waking up in the middle of the night to see if there’s a new alert! i charge it, back it up, clean it, turn it on and off. i might as well own a dog. i worry about it dying, falling, breaking. it links to my face-book, my twitter! it’s my lifeline! with it, i never have to feel lonely. my portable loneliness eliminator. i take it out with me to dinner even. just us.
if I’m super needy or nervous when i’m out and about- i have the option to ‘pretend text’, in order to look cool! i said the option. i don’t actually do that, or feel the need to, but it’s nice to have the option! Jesus! it gives me directions and it is ruling my life.
i know I’m not alone in this crazy heroine like, obsessive addiction to my phone. PS/FYI-: it’s a blackberry, if you must know. and one of the only things that keeps me feeling like i have some modicum of control is that i refuse to bbm. please help me be strong, and remember who i am. grant me the power to overcome this war/battle of my own free will. i love you. xo
PS:
You’ve litterally just described my relationship with my berry, it’s sick and I hate it but there’s no going back! I just need to tell you that if you have friends who are on bbm, you should get on it too. It’s better then regular texting for two reasons:
1. It’s free
2. It doesn’t take up your entire inbox with a million texts. It’s It’s own thing. Try it. I dare you.
xoxo
This describes me the day I got my iPhone. I have to recharge it every single day because it dies without fail from my overuse. Ten years ago I would’ve punched someone if they told me I’d be addicted to a little peicr of metal with a touch screen!!
By the way alexi I fucking love your blog!
Dude. I know how you feel. I got an iPhone a few months ago and it’s taking over. I don’t even like it that much. I can’t hear it. It has a million alerts and now there is a game on it where I know where all of my friends are all the time. I hate this game. But, I’m addicted.
your cell phone can literally make you sick – as in the development of brain tumors, cancer, and other health problems from the radiation. especially with blackberries and other hand held devices.
“Exposure to cell phone radiation is the largest human health experiment ever undertaken, without informed consent, and has some 4 billion participants enrolled.
Science has shown increased risk of brain tumors from use of cell phones, as well as increased risk of eye cancer, salivary gland tumors, testicular cancer, non-Hodgkin’s lymphoma and leukemia.
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I too share the same dependency on the blackberry (I’m sending a theme here). I’ve delved into the dark world of bbm and to be fair, it’s pretty nice! oh god no, I fear I may be in too deep.
If you find a way to wean of the blackberry love let me know!
Yours dependently!
mic
Without my phone I feel physically ill–shaky, anxious…as if there is a whole world of cyber interaction out there that I am missing. It sucks, man. How did it get this far? Where were the warning signs? Where was the concerned-parent-intervention? I feel let down.
that’s why I call it crackberry. I have one too..die
BBM-ing is pretty cool. Once I met a guy at a bar who I didn’t find THAT attractive. For the most part when this happens I don’t like giving my number out. He pulled out his phone to ask me, and realized it was a BB. I was so relieved, I told him, I’ll just give you my Pin for BBM. Now I know I don’t ever have to expect those calls of him asking me out on a date.
Rite, but what do you do with your free time?
oh alexi, i love your honesty! hows the whole boy on bike thing working out?
let me tell you, i understand COMPLETELY. i thought i was the only person with phantom phone syndrome. uh-oh! it is a frightening sickness that we all must control; it’s just so hard to have any restraint.
<3
I don’t have this problem at all. I have complete control of myself and am not a weak little turd-ling checking my phone every 2 seconds for validation. I throw it down in my basement on low battery and don’t give a fuck who could be calling me.
IT’S GREAT.
as long as you refuse the BBM you’ll be ok. i became so addicted to BBM i actually had to switch to iphone to end the madness. it all came to a head when i realized that at least 80% of my BBM friends were mean snotty people who use it to talk shit about people sitting 3 feet away from them at teddys or wherever. everyone in our age bracket needs to be smashed in the face with a reality brick.
Yes, this is me also.
I wake up in the middle of the night to check my emails and I sleep with the phone on the pillow next to me.
I see phantom light flashing too! It scares me.
But hey, at least we’re not seeing phantom PEOPLE or BUGS crawling under our skin.
if you start to bbm you will never stop
A hero (heroine in female) (Ancient Greek: ἥρως, hḗrōs), in Greek mythology and folklore, was originally a demigod, their cult being one of the most distinctive features of ancient Greek religion. Later, hero (male) and heroine (female) came to refer to characters who, in the face of danger and adversity or from a position of weakness, display courage and the will for self sacrifice – that is, heroism – for some greater good, originally of martial courage or excellence but extended to more general moral excellence.
Good call on the bbm. I have a ‘no boy rule’ for my bbm.
What’s great/sucks about bbm is that you can actually see when the person reads/receives the message! Which up’s the anxiety factor ten fold, I think. Even for the most laid-back people like myself.
Especially if you’re dating….It’s just a no win: you send a message to a boy, some time passes and then you start to wonder what he’s doing and why he hasn’t checked his phone, OR you see that he receives the message, and then analyze every second that passes until replies… I’ll take my regular sms texting with a side of mild “He’s probably just driving through a zone where cell phones automatically shut-down for hours” ignorance. thankyouverymuch.
CELL PHONES ARE GOING TO GIVE US ALL CANCER.
Cool!
right there with you girl
blah i am exactly the same..my phone doesnt leave my side!! ever. seriously.
like. i dont even leave it in my hand bag. its either in my hand or in my pocket.
it cant be healthy!!
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ANXIETY ATTACKS caused by BBM … They read the message and then dont reply or they switch their phone off … it really p’s me off … i wake up in the middle of the night to check my phone which is always under my pillow or lying right next to be on me … i have to have it everywhere i go