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When you’re feeling the initial pangs of loss and despair from a break up; when your final texts leading up to it all being over are sending and you’re looking at the bubbles on your phone in anticipation of what he’ll say next… Just know: you were always alone, even when you thought you weren’t, it was just shrouded by a momentary distraction that may have even lasted over 10 years… but you were always alone. You may have learned about yourself, had sex, had good sex, laughed, and shared experiences… but know for sure: you were always alone. The other person may have encouraged you, inspired you, or kept you from getting stuff done. They were a momentary sidekick you had during a fragment of the time you’re spending on this Earth during this lifetime – but you were on your own even then, even though you didn’t realize it. And now you’re alone again, just like you were when you came out of your moms vagina, or removed via c-section, or delivered via stork; Whatever your case may have been. And you’ll be ok. you might even be better.


4 Responses to “always alone:”

  1. Life is Tougb
    Tougher If Your Stupid
    Impossible If You are Alone!

    You need more than MEOW!


  2. Life is Tough
    Tougher If Your Stupid
    Impossible If You are Alone!
    You need more than MEOW!

    sorry typo


  3. Thank you. Actually really needed this right now..


  4. Can’t help but think this is borderline narcissism. I remember explaining to you how I was struggling with my own relationship. Things like this confirm all doubts I have in humanity. There is but a small smidge of unity left in the world. In all the eras before us, love peace, unity and loyalty were held in such a higher regard. Nowadays the gender roles are changing, and nobody needs anybody. Which is sad and stupid. The young people of yesteryear didn’t have what we have today. They had a love to look forward to when they got home a phone call to make in a phone booth, or a letter to write in between their schedules, not an instantaneous break up text message. They had the gut to understand and accept each other, rather than fall back on their own belief. A belief – possibly born out of observations of their own twisted world – that affects a lot more then just your own. So If you’d like to die holding nobody’s hand but your own then go ahead. I’l take my hope and travel along a much more densely cluttered direction and make my own path to love and loyalty. Because even though I have no memory of my own birth, I’m pretty sure the vision I had for my life is a lot more vibrant. I enjoy your posts. All of them. They’re proof that you’re lost in the world just like me. There are posts on your site glorifying the thoughts and actions and feelings involved in love. But there are posts directly defying the attachment to love and the feelings associated with them. You sometimes harbor a hidden but obvious resentment for people in your life. But whats even more obvious is that you long for the real deal. Hope you get your deal, and I hope you don’t die alone.


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