I’d seen and heard about Aaron for a while. But we’d never really met or had a proper chat.
Upon first glance, I immediately found him dark and intimidating-ly alluring. I don’t even know why.
Maybe it was the way he carried himself. He seemed so confident, so unaffected. As if the bubble in which he exists in is impenetrable. Like he’d pick you up for a date on his moped and fuck the shit out of you in the park like a scene from ‘Peggy Sue Got Married’ or something. And he doesn’t even HAVE a moped… i don’t think. To me, this ‘vibe’ is the epitome of bad-ass!
He was standing across the room at a gallery, talking to some other tattooed guy. No big deal. But to me, an immediate impression was made. On my soul. This was intimidation in the BEST way. The kind that makes you say (in your quiet brain voice) ‘I wanna make out with that guy! He looks all moody and broody.’
If I hadn’t had a boyfriend at the time, I would have totally begun playing the whole ‘How do I get this dude to think I’m sexy and neat and interesting and desirable’ game. You know, the game where you morph into whatever you think the dude in question needs you to be. You turn into a character. Which makes sense since you’ve pretty much made the guy a character too- seeing as though you don’t even know him… yet!
In this case, I would have played the part of the coquettish intellectual to get the sexy brooding arty guy.
Yes, years ago, I would have done that. But by the time I was single and Aaron and I became officially acquainted… I’d grown up. And at this point in my life, I’m able to be the same person in every situation. I’m only able/willing to be me. As opposed to what I used to do; become different versions of myself depending on who I hung out with. Compartmentalizing my groups of friends and who they think I am/thought i was/expected me to be. Fuck, that shit was exhausting. Nowadays, I don’t have the energy to morph and change to someones liking. Plus, I’m probs totally wrong about what I’m assuming they even like anyways.
Aaron seemed so exclusive. Like the coolest clique at high school that you want to be a part of sooo bad. He seemed so deep, and potentially angry (about WHAT, I had NO idea… but I was eager and willing to find out!) He seemed tortured and interesting and ALL those other things girls project onto good looking slender stylish guys who may or may not love coffee, are potentially ex junkies, and/or possible insomniacs.
But often times when a girl finally does get close enough to the broody dude in question, they quickly realize that his quiet exterior is not actually a cover up for all the amazing thoughts and feelings lurking beneath the surface- it is in fact all a sham. Cuz what his quiet nature REALLY meant was: there was NOTHING going on in there. And in fact: what you see is what you get! But this was not so with Aaron Rose.
On a beautiful day in Los Angeles, we met up to mutually interview one another. I (obviously) interviewed him for imboycrazy.com, while he interviewed me for ANPQuarterly, the epic magazine he co-edits. I’m so proud and honored to be in it! And PS: the article he wrote about me is AMAZING! (thank you Aaron)
I was sooo nervous! I IMMEDIATLY decided to call our hang out sesh a date, (as if THAT might put me more at ease) and he TOTALLY didn’t mind! But more importantly, what I found out during our mock date, is that he’s not a dick! He’s shy and sweet and charming and funny and interesting. And better yet: none of these happy surprises made him less sexy. Instead I saw that he’s much more special and desirable then the bizarro picture I’d painted of him in my minds eye. With the actual Aaron Rose, I could be myself and not worry about playing some ridiculous part. What a relief!
Watch the video and click on the links to learn all you possibly can about: Aaron Rose. You’re welcome. xo
1. gay, straight, or bisexual- condoms SHOULD always be worn during sex.
2. gay, straight, or bisexual- you can totes have kids!
3. someday soon, anyone and everyone will be able to get married to whoever they want/whenever they want/wherever they want.
here’s to hoping for a better world in the very near future!
thanks for being brave and open to chatting with me boys!
lots of love, alexi